simpleplan31

    So June 14th is flag day and also Stephanie Blake's birthday and it was a sad day... i just I wish i knew what happened to her.. how she is... anything.... I honestly dont even think shes alive but ive thought that before and then heard something randomly... I just want to know.. even if its bad news... bc i hate not knowing where she is or anything... Ive tried searching her name and obits and i havent found anything but that doesnt really mean anything... I dunno...
    Yesterday was ok... work was not great but ok... and then I went to see Oceans 13 again to chaperone Juliet and Julie and a boy... it was ok... and then the shit hit the fan.... Auntie "Em" called and wanted to know if i knew and im like knew what and got it out of her that Don hung himself... whats ironic is i hate hangings i cant stand even the word becase steph tried once and it just seemed like hte most gruesome way to attempt to kill yourself... ANYHOW... i was sad i cried i told daddy he told allison she said shed come... I comforted Juliet who doesnt really understand how some one could be sad enough to do something like that (which honestly is a good thing that shes never been that depressed) plus she didnt like Don so she feels uilty plus theres a curse in my family that someone dies when were 13 and Juliet is a week and a half shy of 14 so she really thinks its her fault and the last time she saw him she didnt say goodbye... so all of that made her upset and I did my best to comfort her... adn then basically i was done being sad and was jsut angry... killing yourself is one of the msot selfsh acts ever... I mean he hurt us all and Uncle Marc I dont think hell ever be ok with it... so Allison came with ice cream and cookies and then Uncle Marc, Mommy and Jaime came home and Auntie Em came.. Uncle marc was ok for awhile and then he just broke down and it was horrible and i was sad for him and angry at Don for putting him in this position... and i got even more angry when I found out that Uncle Marc found him.... why the fuck wouldnt he do it somewhere where someone else would find him or in a less gruesome way.... and plus theres all this money drama because Uncle Marc and him arent married so his mom gets everything unless he had a recent will which im hoping plus the condo in Italy.. i just dunno i dont even know how the hell he could do something like this... I just dont even know...
    Everytime I hear my uncle cry im sad and i cry.... but other than that im just angry...

    More later...

So today I had a bio test and I didnt do well... pat of it is my hatred and inability to undderstand the human heart.... a lot of it was my procrastination... but I should be doing well enough in my other classes to make my GPA good enough to keep my scholarship and stay in the Honors Program.... plus for the next test Ill study more.. I hope
I made my schedule for next year and I got all the classes I wanted and the times and stuff and Im also gonna take a gym class... which is good becuase I need to not be 439249302 lbs anymore... Im also thinking about minoring in substance abuse also... id hafta pay for credits but mommy said itd be okay....
Juliets comign on Saturday.... It should be fun... theres not too much going on though... I might go to What the Folk with Emma and Taylor... Im kinda upset that i didnt get to surprise her like I wanted or even tell her myself and hear her reaction...
So basically thats it...